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Carson Torres
18 | Senior | BN
" It's not who I am underneath, but what I do that defines me." -Bruce Wayne
5 somewhere

 

There’s a lot of other things you could do besides drinking.

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Yeah, but i’m into this choice right now.

(Source: carsontorress)

5 somewhere

 

Good, I’d hate to get in trouble before the semester even starts, but…I couldn’t let you take all the blame.

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Don’t worry about me, i’ve talked my way out of plenty of shit. We might even have a bail savings, me and my best friend Josh raised a lot of hell last year.

(Source: carsontorress)

 

If anyone can, it’s you.

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I’ll do my best.

5 somewhere

 

In a drinking kind of mood today?

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Pretty much.

(Source: carsontorress)

5 somewhere

 

I doubt my sister would be pleased to hear about me getting arrested, so we’ll have to be extra careful to not get caught.

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I will be the fall guy if and when the cops show up.

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(Source: carsontorress)

 

First of all, those better not be tears. C’mon. I’ve seen you cry too much and I don’t want you to do it anymore because of me. Just don’t push it, Car. The reason I bring things up and get mad is because I care. Hey, I haven’t run off yet, right? That’s progress. I’m not going anywhere. Things just take time. 

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I think my eyes are just glossy from smoking. I just feel suck, so hopefully sometime I can knock down that wall.

5 somewhere

 

I don’t know what’d we would do, but whatever it is, I’m in.

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Oh yeah? you sure? we’re law breakers after all.

(Source: carsontorress)

5 somewhere

 

I feel so boring compared to you and everyone else on campus. I think I’m the only student here who hasn’t gone to a BNU party.

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Well, like I said we can change it if you’re up for it.

(Source: carsontorress)

5 somewhere

 

I don’t know if I’ll be able to handle being around both of you at the same time. You two seem unpredictable.

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That’s part of the fun though.

(Source: carsontorress)

 

I didn’t function that way. Do you want the wall to really come down? Dennis only wanted me around when things were bad at home. He didn’t have control of what his dad was doing, but he had control over me and when was angry and wanted to fight back, I was the one he took it out on. When he was upset, I got the cold shoulder. When he was happy, he didn’t need me anymore. I learned that letting people in gave them a chance to break you. It’s easier to give someone what they want and then moving on instead of letting yourself get attached to someone who’s only going to toss you aside. Jamie, Tristan, even you.. I cut you all out before I let myself get in too deep. Instinct. You’ve more than proved that you’re not like Dennis or any other guy for that matter, but it’s not easy to let every wall down when I’ve been so conditioned to hold them up with all might strength. 

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Dennis was a dick with too many issues to deal with. What he did to you and put you through makes me wanna find him and beat the shit out of him. You never deserved anything he put you through, and I know you loved him and I know he really hurt you and you’re still healing from it. I could even find Jamie for joking about you like that, it’s fucked and he should know that shit hurts you. I know what happened with your parents makes it worse. I just.. love you Cassie I love everything about you, your flaws included. I wanna be with you, we’ve been through hell and back together and I get really frustrated thinking I might never get the whole Cassie, everything you are and it kills me. I don’t know how to show you you mean more to me then you understand and i’ve been here, from the start with you i’ve always been here. I fucked up, I know I did cause I thought you wanted some guy like Dennis, but that’s not me and I never want to hurt you again. What can I do, because babe we’re suck. We can’t build anything else with this wall.